When did this happen

I had big plans to play this summer. I had every intention of playing hard, living life, and moving on. And I mostly did. I worked June (Mon-Thurs) but still found myself in Memphis most nights and would stay Thursday - Sunday night every week. I made lots of new friends and had tons of fun. I had the month of July off which made it even easier to play.
During this time I became pretty good friends with a group that I call the Oxford boys. They are super chill, non judgemental, etc. I freakin love these guys. Anyways, there is one in particular that I like. It's kinda weird because when we became friends he had a girlfriend who I wanted him to break up with so he could date one of my friends. She's a super cool girl and he's a super cool guy so it would have just worked. I even remember saying to her at some point that I would never date him.
Well, I have been known to eat my words and while we aren't dating, I really like this boy. And this goes against my current life plan. We went on a date as I mentioned last friday and we hung out monday. This past weekend he came to Jackson to hang out after Charity's bridal shower. We went and rented movies, got snacks, then we went back to my house and hung out. I love how cool he is. He didn't freak out about hanging out at my house with my family. He was super cool around my family. And to me I want the people I'm hanging out with, boy or girl, to know my family. They are my favorite people so I want everyone to know them too. It was so much fun. After he left I drove to Memphis, that's right, I got to memphis at 3am and got to sleep by 3:30. I had to get up Saturday morning at 6:30.
Saturday night there was a group of people that got together in Oxford. I drove down and must admit that at first, I was not having a good time. I felt pretty grumpy and figured it was because I had very little sleep. I decided to take a nap so I went back to Josh's bed to lay down. There was already one person on his bed and one on the floor. I opted to crawl into the bed. I wish I could say I took a nap but not long after I came in, maybe like 5 other people joined us. I can't complain because it is what made the night turn around and we had so much fun.
But here's the whole purpose of this blog, I've changed my mind. When Josh and I first started talking, I was going in just for fun and I'm pretty sure he was too. I knew he was moving so I could just play and at the end we'd call it fun, he would leave and life would resume. But I actually like this boy. I didn't realize it until this week and I'm not sure what I'm wanting out of this but I do like him. Yesterday at church one of the girls that was there Saturday night asked about "us" and I being the private person I am said "we are having fun." Then she said I was his rebound girl and that he was my rebound guy. But that's really not true, I don't do rebounds. And I was a bit offended by it.
So, he leaves this weekend. He's moving! Something that I have known since we became friends. When did those friendly feelings, those we are just going to play feelings change? I'm not really sure. There are things about him that drive me absolutely crazy. I can make list of his faults but I really don't want to. Because there would be no point. Not to mention he's got even more positive things. I'm not going to be heartbroken when he leaves. There would be no point. I'm just going to be appreciative of the short amount of time we got to hang out. It stinks that I have work this week so it's hard to get to hang out together, we do live 2 hours apart. We are both planning on going to FHE tonight. We are going to go to the Redbirds game on Tuesday night. Then I'll see him this weekend, then he's gone. Just like that. In my life and out of it, but worth it. This is the perfect example of "bad timing".
All I can say is life is funny and it makes my laugh. And I like it.