Tuesday, August 25, 2009

What if this is it?

There has been a lot going on in my life lately. Some things that I wish would vanish out of my life and then there are some that I am so grateful for. Lately, I've found myself wondering what if this is life? Am I okay with this being my forever? And I'm not sure what I think about it. Most days I am perfectly content with my life. I'm a natural worry. I worry about things that I should just let go and see how it works out. I generally overanalyze everything. But while I am overanalyzing and worrying I'm also pretty happy.
I wish that I was the type of person who didn't worry about the future/tomorrow. I'm very detailed oriented and while I don't need to know things exactly I would like to have an idea of what is going on. I wish magic 8 balls were more accurate. I guess it would help if I actually figured out what I wanted in life. I think that would be a step in the right direction. Sometimes I think as soon as I have that figured out then something changes where I can't have it. Anyways, just a thought. I am wanting to plan to a few school programs. I am both excited and nervous when I think about going back to school. I am trying to remember that my future is only as bright as my faith. Heaven help my faith to be bright!

2 comments:

Beke said...

I think we all wish we had a magic 8 ball that was right. I am sure life will work out perfect. It is just hard to see the sunshine through the clouds sometimes. If this is your life, sometimes the cloudiest days are the best:)

Renee and Jake said...

I like that quote, your future is only as bright as your faith. It may be fun to go back to school and more education is always good.