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I was looking through some old text messages and I found one that was to Charity in July. It said, it just hit me that I will not be married in my 20's. The very next month I was engaged! Guess you really don't control all things in your life.

WARNING: This is a little, maybe a lot, MUSHY

I am not a big fan of mushy. Maybe in movies but in real life it makes me cringe just a little bit. But here recently I have been that girl. The one one that thinks super mushy things and would actually enjoy saying them out loud. I won't, because most of the people I am around would either cringe (they are my friends) or they would make fun of me (they are my family).
But I will say, I love him. And each day, I love him more. And I miss him on the days I don't see him. And on the days I do, I hate having to leave at the end. I never wanted to be one of those girls who fell in love so fast but I did. And he is the right person for me. I don't believe in there just being one person out there for each of us but now that I have Brent, I couldn't imagine it being anyone else. I love thinking that we get to not only spend the rest of our lives together but we have eternity. And I'm sure at times there will be moments when I don't want to spend another minute with him but I know that there will be more good times than bad.
Brent is the calmest person I've ever met. He is a white personality with a lot of yellow. The yellow doesn't show until you get to know him but it's there. We have the same sense of humor, though I think I am funnier :). We laugh a lot! We have so much fun together. At times he thinks I am absolutely ridiculous, and I am! But he knows when I am being completely serious. And when I am being a little, or completely, irrational, he lets me finish before giving his opinion. He is so patient and kind. He's nothing like the man I had thought in my head was the man of my dreams but he's better. He is perfect for me. I truly look forward to every good and bad time we will have. Because there is no one else I want to experience all this with.
NOW, IF ONLY NOVEMBER WILL GET HERE SO I CAN MARRY THIS MAN! IT'S A GOOD THING HE IS PATIENT, BECAUSE I AM NOT!

I do not like it

I do not like all this wedding planning business. Mostly I find it overpriced and way too stressful. To be quite honest this is how I think it should work.....you should meet a nice man/woman....fall in love.....get engaged....then get married immediately. What is with all this waiting around business. I know some of you think the whole engagement part is fun. But I do not like it. I do not like it one tiny bit. Actually, I do like one part of it. I like that I get to wear a pretty dress. Not just any pretty dress but a dress that Candice is making just for me. Because if she wasn't making my dress I'm thinking I would be looking for someone's dress to borrow, wearing one of my sisters, or getting the $99 from David's bridal. For Candice to make it, it cost me the price of the plane ticket, and then $300 for supplies and materials. Well it might be more than that but for now that is all. She actually hasn't went and got the stuff yet.

But just for the stupid bra thingy to go under the dress was $70, good thing someone let me borrow their slip or that would have been another $100. I know how I want my hair done but I don't know who is going to do it yet. I'm just wearing flat shoes under my dress.

Yes, I know I am complaining. But all I can think about is wow, that cost a lot of money. And we don't even have any furniture. So that makes things a little crazy too. But at least I think we found a place to live. Though I will be commuting to and from work. And while I've did it in the past I am not looking forward to it all.

It's a good thing I love this boy because otherwise I think I would gladly stay single, FOREVER.