A Decade of Good and Bad Times

I was getting ready to title this post, A Decade come and gone, and while writing it Ginny said, A Decade of Happiness. So I decided to combine the two titles and came up with the above. Ten years ago today I was getting ready to go back to my second semester of college. I am almost positive that I thought I was completely grown up. I probably knew everything, my mother still thinks that I am this way. It was good times. Now, 10 years later, a decade past, I am sitting on my parents couch knowing less today about the direction of my life than I did all those years ago.
As I said in my last post, I failed when it came to my goal. But I put a lot into it. I dated this year and I enjoyed it. I live by, never regret something that once made you smile and I smiled a lot this past year. I have absolutely no prospects for 2010 but I am okay with that. Because I'm thinking I have to figure out "ME" first before I can figure out anything else. I can't even tell you exactly what I like in someone else.
This decade has brought a lot of self discovery. I am in a very different place than I imagined myself being at this point. I was that girl who at this point was suppose to have at least 4 kids. Ha, funny huh. But here I am. A career woman, though I still don't think of myself this way. I have had some great times. I would like to believe I am a better person today than I was then.
My testimony has been grown. I have been able to get a Master's degree, not that this makes me any smarter.
I guess this makes me think where I will be this time next year or this time next decade? I'm hoping 10 years from now I won't be sitting on my parents couch unless it's because I'm visiting for the holidays. Thirty-eight might be too old to live with the parentals. I start some night classes in 2 weeks. I'm not sure if it is right or not. But I figure it can't hurt me to take these classes. It'll put me out almost $2,ooo but education can never be a bad investment. Also, whenever Candice comes to visit I start applying for jobs in NYC. Maybe they will call me back.
For some reason the thought of leaving TN scares me. But staying here scares me too. I just want to make the right decisions. I want to put myself in situations where I can progress and meet people.
I'm in an area with very few singles. But it I went to an area with a lot of singles that definitely doesn't guarantee I would date any more. I know that at some point the right person will come along. So I guess I'll just keep living the best I can. If I'm suppose to go to NYC then a job will present itself. If I am suppose to go back to school this will continue to work.
I'm grateful for the lesson's the last 10 years have presented me with. This past decade was my start of adulthood. I look forward to seeing what this next decade has to present. Let the good times begin in 2010.