So I got up as always today got ready for church and off I was. I walk in and I realize, oh my, I feel so lost. I'm back in the Jackson Ward and I felt so alone today. It made me realize I don't fit into the branch anymore but I also don't fit into the Jackson ward. I'm somewhere in limbo. It's no surprise to me that so many single adults in our church go inactive. Not that I will, I have a very firm testimony but I can understand. It's hard not really fitting in anywhere. I'm beginning to wonder if I made a rash decision when I chose to leave the branch. Was coming back to Jackson a mistake? Who knows, but I guess I will try it out.
I hope I can figure life out! I truly do. I figure the reason I failed my goals this year is because I didn't allign them to the Lord's will. I pray that in 2010 I will find His will and live it. I figure we all have the same end goal and we are each just trying to accomplish it. And in the grand scheme of things it doesn't really matter if I fit in or not.
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It is hard fitting in. Especially when you are a rarity. Just remember the most valued jewels are rare ones.
Good ole Jackson ward! I think more people feel that feeling of not fitting in than we think - in fact I think 95% of people feel that way. Which would mean that if everyone who felt that way didn't come to church, there would only be Sis. Fordham left at church. So there you have it! :)
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