Peace

Where can I turn for peace? Where is my solace.. when other sources cease to make me whole. When with a wounded heart, anger or malice, I draw myself apart, searching my soul? Where, when my aching grows--where when I languish? Where, in my need to know, where can I run? Where is the quiet hand to calm my anguish? Who, who can understand? He, only One. He answers privately--reaches my reaching, in my Gethsemane, Savior and Friend. Gentle the peace he finds for my beseeching. Constant he is, and kind. Love without end.

So, I kinda like music. Actually, I kinda love music! It sooths me. There is always something to match my mood. Therefore, when I need a pick me up, it's easy to turn on the radio, a CD, my Ipod, etc and find a song that helps.

I'm not really sure what is going on in my life right now. I don't love drama so I try to stay far away from it and I think I'm pretty successful at it. But as life happens, so does drama. I'm not talking about a particular event that has happened lately, although I did make an exit last night, but just about my life in general.

We all have our personal Gethsemanes. No ones are more or less significant than the person next to them. We all our battles. It's how we react to them. I'm going to turn to my Savior for peace. I'm going to give it all I got and then let Him pick up the rest. I am blessed.
Not only have I been relying on music but I've also been relying on the past 2 conferences to help me. President Uchtdorf in the October conference gave a talk called, "The infinite power of hope." I loved it. A part that hit me particularly hard was, "No matter how bleak the chapter of our lives may look today, because of the life and sacrifice of Jesus Christ, we may hope and be assured that the ending of the book of our lives will exceed our grandest expectations." I know this to be true. I say a lot that life stinks and sometimes it really does. But at the same time we are given so many great and awesome things. Everyone I know has struggles. Everyone I know thinks life is tough. But we are all working towards the ending, not just any ending, but an ENDING THAT WILL EXCEED OUR GRANDEST EXPECTATIONS.
I am so thankful that we as members of the church have hope. We know that our Heavenly Father loves us and knows us perfectly. We know that Jesus Christ lived a perfect life and atoned for our sins so that we can return to live with our Father.

So yes, life is hard. This is not attributed to any one event, I've always known life was tough. I've been good at pretending otherwise. I just feel that recently it decided to snowball. You can't pretend forever that everything is well. (Though I do believe in faking it. And I will continue to do this.) Right now, I feel mostly confused and discontent. I feel as if I get discouraged a little too easy, that I might not be able to handle one more punch in life. But then, I feel the peace that can only be given by the Spirit and these feelings leave. I know that I can say, "I hope you know, I had a hard time" be assured that He is there and I am safe in His loving arms. We never ever have to feel alone.