So I can honestly be happy for people. There are several people that I am happy for right now and the fun exciting new adventures they are starting in their lives. Whether it be marriage, graduating school, starting school, having a baby, etc. But while I am happy for these people that doesn't mean that I don't feel sad about the same exact thing.
I don't feel sad because it is happening to those people but I feel sad because I am not at the same place in my life. And I know that I am exactly where I am suppose to be right now but that doesnt mean that I don't want to be at a different place.
Also I believe it's a lot easier for me to say that I don't want to date someone than it is for me to give them the chance to reject me. I put myself out there in the very recent past. I told someone that I liked them for more than a friend and while we are still friends it didn't work the way I wanted it to. The way I felt it needed to. Because like I said in another blog. The other person also gets a choice. I'm glad he's cool enough to still be my friend and talk to me and I just pretend like I never said anything at all. The thing is, I felt/feel as if we would be pretty dang good together. But I am left to believe that he doesn't find me attractive or maybe I'm too old for him, I don't know.
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