So I was just reading someone's blog about food storage and being prepared and it got me to thinking. As long as it's just me I only have to worry about me. But I started thinking when I get married and have kids I have to deal with them too. If I don't have a food storage it effects the whole family not just me. I'm not sure how I feel about that.Right now, I rarely worry about dinner. Not because I can just eat what mom cooks but because it's easy to feed me. I can grag something on the way home, I can open a can of tuna fish, etc. It can be as simple as I want it to be. But when I get married all of sudden I'm suppose to whip dinner up for two then eventually more. And what if I can't think of anything to cook. D on't get me wrong I love to cook but there is no pressure when I cook now.
Then I started thinking when you are married, don't you get bored. Wouldn't you run out of things to talk about with each other. I'm just saying that I'm not sure if I'm ready to have that. Maybe life would be easier without someone else attached to you. So maybe I don't want it. Maybe I've thought I've wanted it but in reality I don't. I am pretty content being alone. I answer to no one. I come and go as I please. And maybe if I am content single maybe I should be content with my body. Because there are some days that I absolutely hate it. But maybe it doesn't matter.
I still want to be touched, I like that part of relationships a lot. But in the end I guess I'm okay going to bed alone at night, not having someone there. Because it also means I don't have to worry about whether this other person is eating or safe or anything else.
I know this is random but that food storage blog kinda overwhelmed me a bit.
3 comments:
wow this post took some unexpected turns. let's just enjoy the life we have right now and when it changes, it changes. And then we can start worrying about food storage and dinner and what to talk about. Carpe Diem! Seize the DaY!
You may need to feed us too
Yeah so you're exactly right. When I was single - even engaged - if I wasn't hungrey or too busy to eat or whatever, I would just skip a meal. But now I do have to worry about my family and make sure they're fed. And of course I want it to be nutritious food, etc. Being a "married" adult has tons of that kind of responsibility. I was just thinking the other day about how my personality has changed a lot. Like I just feel way less fun and excited as I used to be. And it's true. (It reminds me about the blog post your wrote about Charity? being all fun and perky). I can't really enjoy things that much anymore because I'm constanly worried in the back of my head about what I need to do next for my family. And even worse, a lot of the time they don't even appreciate it! At times it really stinks and the perks of single life you wrote about in your blog are sounding really good about now. Sorry I guess I just have a lot to say since I got stood up by my husband at the ward trunk or treat. Yeah, not cool. Life is crazy.
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