So, I was thinking lately. I know I do that way too much. But it's good right? Anyways, I was thinking if I could go back in time if I would change any of my actions. It's a difficult question. Many may say they would definately erase the past, but did they not learn from it? Or others would say, I wouldn't change a thing, would they not want to say something they left unsaid or take back hurtful words or actions? I don't know the answer. I think there are things I wish I would have told people that I didn't but it probably wouldn't have made any difference. I wish I would have realized what really matters a little sooner in life. But I just don't know. I know there are things I could have did without and others that I know I had to experience to be where I am today.
As for the present, well things are the way they are suppose to be. I went to church in both Jackson and in Memphis yesterday. While there, ofcourse we sang hymns. Well the words of two of them really hit me, "for courage to accept thy will, to listen and obey." and "so trusting my all to Thy tender care, and knowing Thou lovest me, I'll do Thy will with a sincere heart, I'll be what you want me to be". Am I really trusting His will with my all. Do I have the courage. I know that President Ezra Taft Benson said, "Men and women who turn their lives over to God will discover that he can make a lot more out of their lives than they can.He will deepen their joys,expand their vision,quicken their minds,strengthen their muscles,lift their spirits,multiply their blessings,increase their opportunities,comfort their souls,raise up friends and pour out peace.Whosoever will lose their life in the service of God will find eternal life." Have I turned my life over or am I too busy trying to be the one in control. Do I have enough faith? So this is what I will be pondering on the next little while.
Which leads me to my future. It's hard to not wonder what is out there for you. What is ahead in your path. Will I live in TN for the rest of my life. Will I be a mother, a wife. But all I can do is do my best and make sure I'm following Heavenly Fathers will for me. Naturally I'll still think about tomorrow and worry about this and that. But I'm going to try to stop worry about what I can't control and focus on what I can. I can work on being a better worker, a better daughter, sister etc and that should be enough for now. Anyways, just a few of my thoughts on a Monday morning.
2 comments:
I think that you are on the right track! But one thing that I tend to forget is that just because we turn our lives over to God, doesn't mean we're going to get everything we want when we want it. It doesn't mean life will be easy or rosy all the time. But we do have the hope in our Savior that we will have eternal life one day! Sandra you're such a great person, I'm glad to know you!
Your thoughts are so deep. You remind me of me. I think that the decisions we made in the past (even if some were bad), were for our learning. Everyone didn't have to learn the same lessons. We need to remember that by the time we were born, we were already on different levels. Some had progressed farther in the pre-existence than others. Good pondering, Sandra
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