This weekend was so nice. The weather was perfect, the company was great, and I just loved it. Friday after school I drove to Nae's house. Jake and the kids were going to spend the night in Jackson so they werent going to be home. Renee' and I went to dinner and had a really nice time. I then went to a salsa dance for single adults hosted by the Spanish Branch at church. I had a pretty good time there but ended up leaving around 10:30 and heading over to Ben's apartment to play games with him and Brent. I stayed way way too late getting back to Renee's around 2:45.
Saturday the branch was meeting at 10am to fly kites and play frisbee. I had so much fun! I am almost 29 years old and I had never flown a kite! But I did it and my kite went straight up! And it went high! I also can't throw a frisbee but Ben kinda taught me. I had a great time. I headed back to Nae's to play with the kids. We jumped on the trampolene and I almost broke my neck. After a successful front flip I thought I would try a back flip. It didn't work and I landed on my neck. It hurt so bad but I got up and kept jumping. We later met James, Kara, and Elle at the park and played with them for a while. How much fun can a person have in one day! I loved it. I went back to Nae's to shower and get ready to go play laser tag with a group of friends. All I can say is I like laser tag but I hate sweating and I got sweaty. And my team lost and I hate losing. We all went to sonic then went back and played games.
I spent the night with Elle and got to play with her Sunday before church. She is such a little cutie. Church was fantastic. I think I may have missed the branch......a lot. In the Jackson Ward I got called as Camp Director. That should be fun but I think I'm moving the records back to the branch. I'm going to try it out a few more times and if I still love it, back they go.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I want it
*Disclaimer- When writing this I was in an upbeat mood. Please note I in no way am feeling sorry for myself. I didn't write this depressingly so don't read it that way.This past Sunday at church a couple blessed their baby girl. And when they did it made me realize how much I really want to be a mom. And how I really do have a hard time when young girls get pregnant because I don't think it's fair. I know life isn't fair. And I know we don't always get what we want but man do I want this! I know there are still plenty of years for me to have kids I just feel so far away from it. Before I can find kids I have to get married. Before I get married I need to be in a relationship with someone and before that I need to be asked on a date.
I'm generally a confident person but this year I am not. I don't like myself very much. I don't like my looks, I usually have a bad attitude. Neither of those two things makes getting a date easy. At the end of last year I took part in the single's branch STOMP, Single's Taking On Moroni's Promise, and read the Book of Mormon in 90 days. Not only did I read it but I studied it. I spent most of my free time reading in the afternoon. I went to the temple almost every week during this time. I was as intuned as I had ever been. And while my goals were the same then as now, I felt peace.
Then I lost a little focus. I started reading my scriptures less, I prayed less often, I didn't have as much time for the temple. And I felt a drastic difference. Amazing how a few short weeks can change everything. I am trying to get better at this again. I am reading everyday again, not the way I was during STOMP, but I am reading. I'm trying to go to the temple more often. Maybe not weekly but if I'm going to Memphis I will try to go. Because I want that peace back. I want to be happy and the only way I can do that is by living my life in a way conducive to the Spirit.
I'm not really sure what my future does or does not hold but I am positive that Heavenly Father knows and loves me perfectly. He has a plan for me. So I'll keep trying to have hope. I'll keep my eye on the big picture, returning to live with Him.
I know I ramble a lot. Writing is very therapeutic for me. There are some things that I want to write but don't even know how to begin to express them. I know what I need to change, I'm just having a hard time figuring out how to do it.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
That's Too OLD
Okay, So I was talking to this girl from work, she's my age, and she was telling me about going on a date with this guy who is 33. I was like man, he's old! Then I started thinking man he's way too old for her. But guess what, that really isnt' that old compared to me. What is too old to date? What is too young?
In my mind I was thinking anything over 30 was past my limit. But I'll be 30 in 15 months. HOLY CRAP, maybe I'm getting old! Not to mention the guys that are single and my age want to date the girls who are 21.
Just a thought.
In my mind I was thinking anything over 30 was past my limit. But I'll be 30 in 15 months. HOLY CRAP, maybe I'm getting old! Not to mention the guys that are single and my age want to date the girls who are 21.
Just a thought.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Dad's Bday
Renee' and Jake are trying to get their house ready to sale. So I met Renee' on Friday after school and got her 3 kids for the weekend. We had a great weekend together. This was Will's first extended stay. He's only stayed once before and it was only for one night. But he made it the entire weekend.....as did I!Anyways we had a busy day on Saturday. I woke up at 6am so I would be able to get completely ready before the kids got out of bed and start breakfast. I was planning on taking Ginny and Aubree to the Jackson spellingbee. I think it's good for kids to see this kind of thing. Will was going to stay at home with Papa. As it turns out, we drove to the spellingbee only to get there and find they had moved locations. We decided not to go since we would be so late. We went to the grocery store to pick up the stuff for dad's birthday dinner and also to make him a candy gram from the kids.
We went back home, then papaw called and wanted us to come over. Before we left I thought I better feed the kids. As I was making their lunch Aubree was sitting in the kitchen and asked me if I hated kids. WHAT?!?!?! In my mind I started thinking, have I been really mean today? Am I not a nice aunt? Etc. So I asked her why should would say that. And told her how much I loved kids. She said that her mom hates kids besides the ones that she knows. I felt much better that she didn't think I was a horrible mean child hating person. I fed them, loaded them up and drove to papaws. I didn't want to stay too long because I wanted to get home so I could finish dinner before dad had to leave to go to Nashville to pick up mom. So we stayed a few hours and then left. Will woke up entirely too early for the day and had only a 30 minute nap so he was being a little terror. But we got home and I finished a delicious dinner. The house needed to be cleaned. Dad hadn't cleaned it in the 2 weeks mom was gone. I thought my sweet nieces would help and Ginny did. Aubree got attacked by a rooster so when I asked her to help she said to me, "Let me ask you something, if you were attacked by a rooster would your still help?" I let her off the hook because it was probably just easier to do it myself. We watched the movie G-force and when dad headed to the airport that night we decided to start getting ready for his bday. We made him this fun candy gram from the kids. We blew up ballons and hung them around the house! The kids loved it. Then I had to reclean the living room but I thought it was worth it.
We were in bed by the time my parents got home but dad did love his candy gram! I'm glad he had a good birthday. I got steaks to cook and a nice fresh salad and potatoes. Jake grilled, mom made rolls and mac & cheese and we enjoyed the time. Nae, Jake and Sister Knox came. The day ended rough, that's Nae's story to tell, but overall it was very nice.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Cruisin in the Caribbean
I’m sitting in my office today looking out my office door and it’s rainy and cold out there. I’m not in love with the weather. I want to be in the Caribbean still. I want to go back to vacation mode which is so much better than work mode. But as we all know, the real world trumps vacation world and we all must return.
My vacation started off great! I flew into Orlando on Thursday where I was picked up by one of my best friends, Lindsay. It was so fun seeing both her and Charlie! We went back to her place and then we all went out to dinner. I forget the name of the restaurant but it was really good! I like it a lot. We went home, chatted for a while and headed to bed! Friday we went to the botanical gardens and they were so beautiful. I loved them. We went back home and I took a nap. I love my sleep and need it too. Lindsay had some friends come over that night and we were supposed to play games but instead we ended up just talking. They were super cute girls. Saturday was a special day it was the day we…..went to SeaWorld and LOVED IT! Those whales were amazing and I know consider them my new favorite animal (I am aware that one killed one of the trainers but they are still my favorite)! Not only were the shows amazing but the roller coasters were crazy good, two of the best ever. And it was awesome because I got to go with Lindz and then with Scott so I did them twice. Amazing. SeaWorld is expensive but I really really enjoyed it. It was about time for them to drop me off to meet Amy so we grabbed a bite to eat then headed to the airport. I was so happy to see Amy. I got to go from being with one of my best friends to being with another!
We got our stuff together, got on the shuttles to the hotel, and when we got there I was surprised that I was staying in a room with complete strangers. It started out with 4 of us, then one decided to stay on the pull out couch of a friend, then there were 3. When they came back later that night one of the others decided to stay in her sister and brother-in-laws room so it ended up with just me and one other girl. Not bad. Then the day finally arrived, our cruise was finally here. The day we had waited for. Again, the word amazing comes to mind. Sunday started off great. We ate, because that is what you do and we wanted to start off right. Then we hung out, then we went to the spa and had full body massages, then we went straight to a murder mystery dinner that was quite cheesy but served the best filet mignon I’ve eaten so it was okay that it was silly. It was great!
Monday was a sea day and I really don’t remember what we did all day. It was a tad too cold and windy to go lay by the pool. I know we shopped, watched others surf and boogie board. We went to the ice skating show and it was great. It was really well choreographed and the skaters were really talented. We went to dinner that night at one of the speciality restaurants and had some more red meat. After dinner we went to a show that was great. To be honest the shows on this ship were awesome. We enjoyed them all.
Tuesday we arrived in Labadee, Haiti. It was HOT! My sunglasses had broken on my way to FL. I needed to find some immediately. My eyes are super sensitive to light. We found some, we went to the beach, and we laid out. We got in the water some but the beach was super rocky. So unless you had on shoes you had to be careful. It was nice and relaxing. I applied sunscreen religiously and amazingly did not burn. It was a nice day. When we returned to the ship we went boogie boarding and it was so fun! I got a little moody that afternoon, sorry Amy, I still feel bad for it. We went to the illusionist show and headed to bed. I wish we would have gone to the marriage show but whatever, that’s the past.
Wednesday we were in Jamaica! Yea mon, that’s right! What did we do, we got out hair braided of course. Just kidding. There were no braids happening with us! We went and had to our dolphin encounter. We didn’t get to swim with them but got to touch them and get a little kiss from them. While we were there we went and held the parrots, pet the iguana named Elvis, and met a nice man by the name of Michael and his most adorable son. I’m sure Michael treated all the tourist this way but Amy and I loved it. He gave us both nicknames, I was emperous goodness. His son wanted to get pictures with us and then proceeded to tell us that after 1 o’clock comes 2 o’clock. His homework the night before was telling time. So cute. We then went over to the Dunn’s River Falls and this is one of my trip highlights. To climb a waterfall is an amazing experience. It was gorgeous and so much fun. I’m sure it made Amy miss Michael because she knows he would have loved it. We went to some shops in Jamaica but didn’t really buy anything. We had heard the shopping in Grand Cayman was awesome so we decided to wait. Looking back I really wish I had bought this one beautiful vase that was made from cinnamon wood but I didn’t. So next time I will.
Thursday came and we woke to the announcement that it was too rocky to tender where we were suppose to so we had to tender in from another area on the island. It was rocky but the water was gorgeous. We had scheduled a highlights tour and off we were. It was less than wonderful. The only kinda cool thing was the pirates cave. And we also saw a LDS church building that excited us. We were dropped off by the shopping but it was NOT great. Whoever informed us was not well informed! That night Amy and her mom had a pedicure scheduled so she had to leave dinner early, then the rest of my table had to leave to go to the ice show. I was still eating so I was going to stay and finish. That night we were sitting with people from Amy’s dad’s dental office and one of the girls was 18. The 18 yr old looked at me and was like it’s so sad to leave you here alone. I told her I was fine. She said I should move to the other table, they were also in our group. I again said it was fine; I am use to doing things alone. She told me it just looked sad. It made me laugh a little on the inside. She’s still in the age group that goes to the bathroom in herds and feels uncomfortable alone. I am very much passed that stage. I don’t enjoy being alone but I am okay with it. Later that night we met up for a Tribute to the Temptations and it was good. I liked it a lot.
Friday was here and we were in Cozumel, Mexico. While I had thought the water in Grand Cayman looked amazing it was nothing compared to the water here. It was so inviting. It called my name. It wanted me to swim in it. To bask in it’s glory. Unfortunately, that was not our plan for the day. Fortunately our plan included seeing the Tulum Mayan Ruins. I would still choose the ruins over the beach but really wish I could have done both. I wish we could have skipped the Cayman Islands and spent two days in Cozumel. That would have been ideal. We did do some shopping here. You know the last day and you still have cash to spend; you have to spend it right? I got all the nieces and nephews cool gifts then we got my parents 2 chair hammocks to hang (maybe I will get the most out of one of them but still it’s for them), then Amy and I had said we needed to get something matching to remember our trip by (just in case all the pictures and the amazing time wasn’t enough). We found the perfect thing, red coral necklaces. At the end we were dropped off and told we needed to take a taxi back to the ship. But we could see the ship and decided to walk it. After a little time we could no longer see the ship. There was a group of taxi drivers so we asked if we were headed in the right direction for Royal Caribbean. One was nice enough to tell us yes and all the others were trying to get us to take the taxi. One even yelled its 4 miles from here. Amy and I were like yea right and kept walking. Well guess what, we barely made it back to the ship on time, it was 4 miles! Oh well, we enjoyed the walk and would have enjoyed it more if we weren’t constantly checking the watch to make sure we were going to get on the ship by the appropriate time. We made it to dinner, then to a show that had lots of songs from Broadway.
Saturday came and we woke up super late! We slept in for sure and why not, it’s our last day at sea. We woke up got ready and headed out. We decided to go ice skating J. It killed my shins. But I can say I went ice skating while at sea. Amy did the rock wall, I did not. I wanted to wait until later but never went and had the chance. We went to the game room and Amy played games with her family while I listened to my book. We had lunch at Johnny Rockets; ate way too many onion rings. Amy and I decided we wanted to wear our red coral necklaces so we got dressed up, put them on and went and took a few pictures. We went to our last night of entertainment. The last day is always bittersweet. I know Amy was ready to see her family and I was a little ready to be home as well but at the same time cruise life is so easy and fun. Going back to the real world, the world we live in most of the time is hard. But I’m glad I got to go with one of my best friends. I’m lucky that Michael found such an awesome wife and that we all get along.
My vacation started off great! I flew into Orlando on Thursday where I was picked up by one of my best friends, Lindsay. It was so fun seeing both her and Charlie! We went back to her place and then we all went out to dinner. I forget the name of the restaurant but it was really good! I like it a lot. We went home, chatted for a while and headed to bed! Friday we went to the botanical gardens and they were so beautiful. I loved them. We went back home and I took a nap. I love my sleep and need it too. Lindsay had some friends come over that night and we were supposed to play games but instead we ended up just talking. They were super cute girls. Saturday was a special day it was the day we…..went to SeaWorld and LOVED IT! Those whales were amazing and I know consider them my new favorite animal (I am aware that one killed one of the trainers but they are still my favorite)! Not only were the shows amazing but the roller coasters were crazy good, two of the best ever. And it was awesome because I got to go with Lindz and then with Scott so I did them twice. Amazing. SeaWorld is expensive but I really really enjoyed it. It was about time for them to drop me off to meet Amy so we grabbed a bite to eat then headed to the airport. I was so happy to see Amy. I got to go from being with one of my best friends to being with another!
We got our stuff together, got on the shuttles to the hotel, and when we got there I was surprised that I was staying in a room with complete strangers. It started out with 4 of us, then one decided to stay on the pull out couch of a friend, then there were 3. When they came back later that night one of the others decided to stay in her sister and brother-in-laws room so it ended up with just me and one other girl. Not bad. Then the day finally arrived, our cruise was finally here. The day we had waited for. Again, the word amazing comes to mind. Sunday started off great. We ate, because that is what you do and we wanted to start off right. Then we hung out, then we went to the spa and had full body massages, then we went straight to a murder mystery dinner that was quite cheesy but served the best filet mignon I’ve eaten so it was okay that it was silly. It was great!
Monday was a sea day and I really don’t remember what we did all day. It was a tad too cold and windy to go lay by the pool. I know we shopped, watched others surf and boogie board. We went to the ice skating show and it was great. It was really well choreographed and the skaters were really talented. We went to dinner that night at one of the speciality restaurants and had some more red meat. After dinner we went to a show that was great. To be honest the shows on this ship were awesome. We enjoyed them all.
Tuesday we arrived in Labadee, Haiti. It was HOT! My sunglasses had broken on my way to FL. I needed to find some immediately. My eyes are super sensitive to light. We found some, we went to the beach, and we laid out. We got in the water some but the beach was super rocky. So unless you had on shoes you had to be careful. It was nice and relaxing. I applied sunscreen religiously and amazingly did not burn. It was a nice day. When we returned to the ship we went boogie boarding and it was so fun! I got a little moody that afternoon, sorry Amy, I still feel bad for it. We went to the illusionist show and headed to bed. I wish we would have gone to the marriage show but whatever, that’s the past.
Wednesday we were in Jamaica! Yea mon, that’s right! What did we do, we got out hair braided of course. Just kidding. There were no braids happening with us! We went and had to our dolphin encounter. We didn’t get to swim with them but got to touch them and get a little kiss from them. While we were there we went and held the parrots, pet the iguana named Elvis, and met a nice man by the name of Michael and his most adorable son. I’m sure Michael treated all the tourist this way but Amy and I loved it. He gave us both nicknames, I was emperous goodness. His son wanted to get pictures with us and then proceeded to tell us that after 1 o’clock comes 2 o’clock. His homework the night before was telling time. So cute. We then went over to the Dunn’s River Falls and this is one of my trip highlights. To climb a waterfall is an amazing experience. It was gorgeous and so much fun. I’m sure it made Amy miss Michael because she knows he would have loved it. We went to some shops in Jamaica but didn’t really buy anything. We had heard the shopping in Grand Cayman was awesome so we decided to wait. Looking back I really wish I had bought this one beautiful vase that was made from cinnamon wood but I didn’t. So next time I will.
Thursday came and we woke to the announcement that it was too rocky to tender where we were suppose to so we had to tender in from another area on the island. It was rocky but the water was gorgeous. We had scheduled a highlights tour and off we were. It was less than wonderful. The only kinda cool thing was the pirates cave. And we also saw a LDS church building that excited us. We were dropped off by the shopping but it was NOT great. Whoever informed us was not well informed! That night Amy and her mom had a pedicure scheduled so she had to leave dinner early, then the rest of my table had to leave to go to the ice show. I was still eating so I was going to stay and finish. That night we were sitting with people from Amy’s dad’s dental office and one of the girls was 18. The 18 yr old looked at me and was like it’s so sad to leave you here alone. I told her I was fine. She said I should move to the other table, they were also in our group. I again said it was fine; I am use to doing things alone. She told me it just looked sad. It made me laugh a little on the inside. She’s still in the age group that goes to the bathroom in herds and feels uncomfortable alone. I am very much passed that stage. I don’t enjoy being alone but I am okay with it. Later that night we met up for a Tribute to the Temptations and it was good. I liked it a lot.
Friday was here and we were in Cozumel, Mexico. While I had thought the water in Grand Cayman looked amazing it was nothing compared to the water here. It was so inviting. It called my name. It wanted me to swim in it. To bask in it’s glory. Unfortunately, that was not our plan for the day. Fortunately our plan included seeing the Tulum Mayan Ruins. I would still choose the ruins over the beach but really wish I could have done both. I wish we could have skipped the Cayman Islands and spent two days in Cozumel. That would have been ideal. We did do some shopping here. You know the last day and you still have cash to spend; you have to spend it right? I got all the nieces and nephews cool gifts then we got my parents 2 chair hammocks to hang (maybe I will get the most out of one of them but still it’s for them), then Amy and I had said we needed to get something matching to remember our trip by (just in case all the pictures and the amazing time wasn’t enough). We found the perfect thing, red coral necklaces. At the end we were dropped off and told we needed to take a taxi back to the ship. But we could see the ship and decided to walk it. After a little time we could no longer see the ship. There was a group of taxi drivers so we asked if we were headed in the right direction for Royal Caribbean. One was nice enough to tell us yes and all the others were trying to get us to take the taxi. One even yelled its 4 miles from here. Amy and I were like yea right and kept walking. Well guess what, we barely made it back to the ship on time, it was 4 miles! Oh well, we enjoyed the walk and would have enjoyed it more if we weren’t constantly checking the watch to make sure we were going to get on the ship by the appropriate time. We made it to dinner, then to a show that had lots of songs from Broadway.
Saturday came and we woke up super late! We slept in for sure and why not, it’s our last day at sea. We woke up got ready and headed out. We decided to go ice skating J. It killed my shins. But I can say I went ice skating while at sea. Amy did the rock wall, I did not. I wanted to wait until later but never went and had the chance. We went to the game room and Amy played games with her family while I listened to my book. We had lunch at Johnny Rockets; ate way too many onion rings. Amy and I decided we wanted to wear our red coral necklaces so we got dressed up, put them on and went and took a few pictures. We went to our last night of entertainment. The last day is always bittersweet. I know Amy was ready to see her family and I was a little ready to be home as well but at the same time cruise life is so easy and fun. Going back to the real world, the world we live in most of the time is hard. But I’m glad I got to go with one of my best friends. I’m lucky that Michael found such an awesome wife and that we all get along.
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