Here's the thing

I know it shouldn't matter but ever since I had Elijah and had to have a csection I've felt kinda bad about it. I try to say it doesn't matter because he's here and in the big scheme of things that is exactly how I feel. 

But here lately I feel like it has come up a lot. Yesterday we took him to an ENT doctor where it was determined if needed tubes in his ears. Poor little guy has had so many ear infections which I already think is in part because I didn't breast feed him. Anyways. At the dr they at starts asking questions. Was he breast fed, no (though what I really wanted to say is how is that relevant to his ears) and the next question did he have an uncomplicated birth. I answered yes and he said, so he was born vaginally. And I again I had to say, he was a csection. 

Another time it has come up is when I was with a group of moms and they were talking about delivery and they were like, well, you know how it is. Nope, I don't. I don't deliver babies, I have babies unnaturally cut from me.