Once it's said, it's said

Well I have debated on whether to say this out loud to everyone or just keep it to myself. My number one goal in 2009. I tested it out by saying it to my family and there was a mixed response. So here I go, my goal in 2009 is to get me a man for the eternities! There it is, out in the open. Now you all know. Wow, I don't know if I feel relieved or just plain stupid for admitting it.
Here's the thing, I'm at the point in my life where I feel ready for this. I have accomplished other goals. I know that this goal is a little crazy. I have little control over it. I can't force anyone to ask me on a date, to want to continue to date me, to want to give me a ring, take me to the temple and want to spend eternity with me as their companion. But I am thinking 2009 is my year to shine.
When saying this goal out loud to my family, a few ignored it or at least had no response to it. I know I have to work on improving myself. I went to the temple this past Saturday. I went to the 9am session. Unfortunately not enough people showed up so we had to do sealings. I had never done these before and really wasn't planning on doing them until I was sealed to someone myself. But it turned out to be really nice. I thought it was a good way to start the year. Especially the year that I plan on hopefully meeting my eternal companion.
Okay, it's been said. Just a recap, 2008 was a pretty good year. I went on dates with a few really wierd guys and then some really good guys. There was Ben there at the end. I really liked him and still think he is pretty incredible. Too bad he doesn't like me. It's okay, I'm not asking for any pity. It was fun playing with him. It gives me the hope that there are really good guys out there. Guys that are worth spending your time on. The kind of guy that when you think about him, you have to smile because that's just who he is. Maybe I still have a crush?!?!
Well everyone, now that you know my goal, know that I will get discouraged at times, I'm sure it is leaving me in a very vulnerable place. I could be setting myself up for disappointment and failure. But, I'm trying and I know it is a righteous desire. Heck, it's a commandment. I'm not the only one who has this goal this year. I am hoping this year proves to be a year worth remembering. A year that when I look back I can't help but to become a little giddy or emotional because it was such a great year. Wish me luck!