Charity is home from her first year of college. This has caused me to think about a few things. One being what I was like at 19. I've talked to Candice and Nina about this and know their thoughts so sorry if you have to re-hear this.
I think it was last week I was talking to my mom and Charity. I made mention of how was I suppose to find someone to take me on a date when Charity was home. People naturally love her. My mom said, "People are just attracted to Charity's personality, that is just who she is." So I said, "Don't you think people are attracted to me?" This is where it gets sad, she said do you want me to be honest. I knew at that very moment I did not want to hear what she was about to say. The answer was NO, I do not attract people. That is not the worst, she went on to why I don't. It made me feel kinda bad about myself. But I have had time to ponder on this and have come to a grand conclusion. Charity is only 19 years old. Everyone is a lot perkier, youthful, and peppy at 19. Myself included.
This was brought up again yesterday at the singles branch as I was talking to one of Charity's friends that is just like her. It's the age. They have not become jaded by life. I am not saying that there aren't older perky people but it's a lot easier at 19. I'm not saying they are care free. I know they have to worry about school, finances, dating but it's different.
I feel much better about myself now. Don't you think you had a lot more energy at 18-19! I can't compete with the younger girls. But hopefully that the boys that I want to date don't want to date them! This is not always the case, there have been boys that I have liked that like Charity but that's life. She's cute and energetic. I don't blame them. Not to mention I know that there is someone out there who is being prepared for me.
I know this was a lot of rambling but it is just what I've had on my mind lately. And when you write things it actually helps! I have an article on that.
6 comments:
I just got done being the 1st counselor in YW and I totally noticed the same thing among the girls. Some of it is perkiness, some of it is just being starry eyed about life. When you're 19 you're pretty naive about a lot of things. Once you get burned a few times and life comes at you, things change or at least your perspective does. I'd like to think I'm still a little perky though...on a good day, right?
Boys are lame! I think I was a lot perkier at 19 but I am glad that I have grown out of that stage. I think that if a guy is attracted to us now they are attracted to the real us...not the carefree young adult. Not that I am much older than 19 now.
I was totally more perky when we were living together at Ricks than I am now. (Wait and see when you come visit!) In fact I was totally more perky before I got married. As life gets more serious and the respobsibilities add up, the perkiness goes down. You totally hit it on the nail Sandra!! I think that's why so many young married couples end up with problems. The guy is like "Why are you fun and spunky anymore?" and the girl is like, "Whatever, you're the boring one now". So like Beck said, at least you won't have to go through that adjustment with anyone! And p.s. for the record, you totally attract people with your personality. I don't know anyone who doesn't love you!!!
whatever...I'm totally perky and youthful!
Your post just made me think of how much I have realized how much I love and admire my sisters in the past weeks. And how lucky I am to have them. Even when they steal all the boys from me! Wait... did I just type that out?
Its strange that I just read this and it's been up for a bit...First of all, I have been jaded once or twice in life so I dont appreciate people saying that once 19 year olds have been jaded they will understand. I understand that as people get older a lot of that goes away. I think you are just as fun and perky as I am though...I have seen you crazy :) Seriously though...You are perfect and I love you. A lot!
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