This past week our stovetop broke. It made me upset but I thought, oh well, I'll get it fixed once Clark is here. Daddy's back also went out. Then this week happened. Monday Elijah had to have surgery for his 3rd set of tubes. It was hard to go alone and be so pregnant. But we survived it. Daddy couldn’t come because he spent the night in the ER with severe back pain. Spoiler alert it still isn’t better, but I could chose for things to be good. By the time bed time came I was super relieved and fell asleep easily. A couple hours after I went to bed I heard an alarm go off. My initial thought was it was the fire alarm. Can you image how scary that would be! I soon discovered it was the oven with an error message. I quickly turned it off and went back to bed. It kept doing it and it took me an hour and a half before I finally got smart and flipped the breaker. I told Daddy at that moment I was at my breaking point. A lesson you should learn is to never say that, it willget worse if you think it can’t. Wednesday’s Daddy is feeling so bad we get an appointment with a dr, thanks for Nana and Papa having a connection. The appointment is in Jackson which is over an hour away. They don’t take our insurance but we decide it doesn’t matter, we need Daddy to get better. Unfortunately in life there are rarely quick or easy fixes. He did get an MRI and they did at least see the problem. Unfortunately, there isn’t really a good solution. Today is Thursday and it’s still about the same. As we laid in bed tonight Daddy said something that about broke my heart, and his, he said it’s just gonna have to stop playing with you all so much when it comes to sports. Because being active is what triggered his back. It made me so sad.
Something you will know, is you have the best daddy in the whole world. I definitely married up and I know it. He’s the best man I’ve ever met. So to see him sad, just about breaks me.
I know this letter seems depressing and you may wonder why I wanted you to know all of this. I guess I wanted you to realize even when nothing seems to be going right, beautiful things can and do still happen. Because we’ll Be getting you soon.
Your arrival has been so anticipated. You are coming into a family that already loves and adores you so much! And while life is tough, we always manage. Not only do we manage but we can do it happily.....most of the time.
I can’t wait to snuggle you. I can’t wait to see your daddy hold you. My favorite part of each delivery is when they hand you to your daddy and he gets to show you to me. He is so proud and happy in that moment. I wish I could capture it. I’m also so excited for you to meet Elijah, Madelynn, and Nolan. They are amazing kids. Elijah has the most tender heart and will make sure you are happy. Madelynn will mother you and love you so much. And Nolan already says how much he plans to hold you and play with lyou. You’ll see, you’ll have a happy life. I’ll write your birth story some time tomorrow.
I love you little (or more than likely big) guy. I can’t wait to hold you in 10 hours. Thank you for being the sunshine this week. Because anytime it seemed more than I could bare, I always knew come Friday, you’d be in my arms.
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