I may really like this one....a lot.

It's a long one....so you may not want to read it. Because it gives a lot of play by plays. But since I partially use this as my journal, I did it this way.
I was thinking that Summers are my favorite. At the beginning of July, I went on a date with one of the coolest guys ever. And the date was the best date I've ever been on. Brian is one of my favorites. When he told me he was going to pick me up at 4:30 in the afternoon I was a little concerned. That was so early! He took me to paint a piece where we made each other plates. We were there until they closed at 9! He was so super fun to talk to and the activity was awesome. I love the plate he made me. Then he took me downtown to eat at Rendezvous. I felt a little guilty that he spent so much money. The date cost him like $80! And he's a poor student. And at the time he was only 21. Which I secretly like :). It was a perfect date. He came and picked me up (which never happens to me), he opened the car doors, he asked questions, he was the perfect date. And at the end of the night he even walked me to the door. So super cute. He is by far one of my favorite people I've met. Whoever marries this guy is one of the luckiest girls ever.
Then the next weekend I went on a date with Brent. Most of you know I've had a crush on him forever. But he refused to like me back. I hung out with a small group of friends on Monday July 5th and he was one of them. We all did lunch, went to a movie, then 3 of us went swimming, then off to FHE, then we went to Brian's for some fireworks. I had a lot of fun hanging with Brent this day but I still didn't think he would ever ask me out. So, I decided to put it out there. I sent him a text that said, I'm glad you hung out with us today. Then sent a second text that said, "you should make it happen more often.....or with just me." I was so so so nervous. But I gave him an out. He could say yea, lets all get together some time or he could say yea, lets go out. He responded a few minutes later saying, "When do you want to make it happen. I had a lot of fun with you today." I of course said lets make it happen this weekend. And that was that. But then I got nervous. What if he didn't mean it. What if he felt obligated, etc etc etc. Remember I'm not only a girl but an over analyzer. Then when I still hadn't heard from him on Wednesday I got real nervous. Then I saw him on Thursday and he hadn't mentioned it. But he came through. Friday was branch baptism night, so we decided to go to that then go out after. And it was a great night. We went to dinner, then back to his place, watched a movie, and talked. I still couldn't read him, was he into me or not.
Saturday 4 of us went to Tunica to eat at Paula Deens and when he didn't stand by me in the picture I thought oh well, he's not into me. We came back to Memphis. We went to a movie, then Brent and I went shopping for him something fabulous to wear to my party. We met up with some friends and went to Beale Street. It was fun and I decided to still try to hit on him. You know when you put your leg way close to theirs. I know it's silly but I for real did that. He didn't move away, I know, it's like being 17 again.
Sunday, he didn't really talk to me at church. This may be a good time to mention he is the quietest man I've ever met. Like seriously, he doesn't talk. I know I know, it's crazy! So I sent another text, modern technology makes things so easy, that said, "I"m gonna be in town tomorrow if you wanna do something. Just putting it out there." He invited me over for Monday. So we went to lunch, saw Despicable Me, and made treats for FHE. I could tell during the movie he wanted to maybe touch me. Then he put his hand on my leg. But he's real shy so he was going to pull away, so being who I am, I helped by slipping my hand into his. After FHE we went back to his place again where I stayed way too late. And we decided to chill Tuesday before I had to pick my mother up from the airport.
So on Tuesday we were sitting on the couch all cuddled up and my face was for real close to his face. Like within an inch or 2. But nothing, and it was kinda awkward. So I said, usually when a girl puts her face this close to your face it means you should kiss her. And after a short conversation, he did! And I was glad and sad to leave to go get my mom. I went back to Jackson and decided to spend Wednesday day there since it was my bday. It was a good day. That night was Brent's last softball game so I went and watched it. After the game a big group went out for ice cream for my bday. It's kinda weird when you don't really know what you are with someone. So we didn't sit together at first and definitely didn't touch. To be honest at this point I still had a crush on him and someone else. So yea. But after ice cream we just stayed and talked for forever. Well mostly, I talked because he is so quiet. Actually, we mostly made out like teenagers in a car. But every once in a while to get him to talk I would pull away and ask him a question. I wouldn't kiss him again until he answered it. I've always found this method to be effective with the male gender.
Thursday we hung out all day and most of the night. He's just so easy to be around. But Friday I had to meet up with my girlfriends for pedicures and getting ready for the party. So I didn't see him until he arrived at the party. Party will be my next post. It was amazing. Jenn asked if that was our coming out. And it freaked me out a little bit. Because it was not. We were not in a relationship. Though, I knew at that point we would be.
Saturday he was flying home to California for three weeks. So I went over and took him to breakfast. Afterwards we chilled until it was time for him to leave, which was early. Before he left we decided not to date other people, more of an issue for me than him. And he left. Then I started thinking, what a bad time for this. We should have waited until he got back to get into a relationship.
I actually didn't think I would miss him. But, I do! There are benefits to him being so far away, it makes us have to talk on the phone. And we are getting to know each other better. I'm just waiting for him to realize how crazy I really am. And decide he doesn't like my crazy. But for now, I am just enjoying it. And anxiously waiting for that boy to get back to TN! I know when he gets back it will be craziness too. I've started work back and I'm planning on taking classes at night. He is in his 2nd year of optometry school which is the hardest busiest year. Oh yea, and we live over an hour away from each other! But it'll all be okay.
So in short, We've only dated for 2 weeks and one of those weeks he's been thousands of miles away. It feels like we've been dating for a long time. I'm sure that is somewhat due to the fact that we spent most days, all day, together before he left so we've had a lot of face time. But it's also because I'm just comfortable with him. I don't feel too much of the "new" dating pressure, where you are really careful around the person. I kinda am, just because, but for the most part, it's out there....all my craziness.
I really like this boy! He's definitely different from me and anyone else I've ever dated. I'm real social and loud, he's really reserved and quiet. I'm a blue/yellow personality, he is a white....very white! So it'll be interesting to see how this one plays out. I tried to not put it all out there with him, I wanted to self protect more, but it's not happening. I'm gonna put all into it. So, if it ends badly, then it'll really hurt. But I have to have a fearless heart. I have to be willing to give my all and if it doesn't work I have to be willing to give me all again and again until it does work. But for now, I'm only going to think positively. And I think this man is pretty dang amazing!